I want for people in the universe, my fans and otherwise, to essentially use me as an escape. I am the jester to the kingdom. I am the route out. I am the excuse to explore your identity. To be exactly who you are and to feel unafraid. To not judge yourself, to not hate yourself.
want.

want.

Champagne
Michael Davidson

Champagne

Michael Davidson

Louisa Bertman

Louisa Bertman

reminding myself to breathe

Upset about a conversation with a friend, and I need to let it out.

Long story short, I had a debate with a friend over a subject about which I feel passionately. And instead of fostering a healthy debate between friends, he chose to insult me and my opinions and then log out of chat. Yes we were having a debate over gchat - we live in modern times.

What hurts me is not that someone disagreed with me, but that someone I consider a close friend had the audacity to insult me for feeling passionately about something. This semester has been one of tremendous personal growth, and I’m turning into an individual who vocalizes criticism of a system that promotes one societal norm and characterizes anyone who doesn’t fit this norm as an “other.” I’m specifically interested in how gender and religion are used to uphold this societal norm. But the only reason I’ve been able to reach a stage of feeling confident in my opinions is because these opinions were shaped and are still being shaped by the opinions of others. We can’t learn, we can’t grow, unless we debate with people whose opinions differ from our own. So this is why it is so upsetting when someone whose opinions I respect and care about chooses to insult me and my convictions.

Feels good to get it off my chest.